discarded gift

given my character.. i wld nvr hav picked up or bothered abt something w/o sincerity.. mayb its jus a material want?.. that.. i refused to admit due to my pride.. so mayb its sedimental want?.. that.. i refused to come to terms with due to my anger..

i was nvr sure of why i hav the discarded gift picked up since that day..
mayb i lost both my pride n anger.. jus mayb.. i dunno n i nvr noe..

but today.. i'm glad i have it.. i'm glad it was discarded.. not ripped.. i'm glad it was picked.. not trashed.. i'm glad thou it was discarded physically.. the wishes was nvr discarded.. i'm glad thou it was stained n cldnt b perfect.. it reminds mi of the imperfect world i'm in.. i wld nvr have wanted another gift..