last words..

i hereby pronouce this blog dead.. 26th June 2005 21:08..

there are alot of causes n reasons.. but i guess i should jus quit blogging n move on in life..

blogging life of 3 yrs hasnt brought me anywhere..

pls rest in peace..

i dread..

talking to ppl when i cant fully express myself.. tis is called entertainment.. relationship building?!

do they bother wat you are thinking.. well.. obviously no..

i mean u wanna talk to communicate.. but yet there's so much thing u cannot say.. you say things that ppl wan to hear..(well but i always say the wrg things coz tis where i'm bad at.. i cannot fathom wat ppl want to hear coz i cannot see why ppl tink that way.. so i shd jus stick to cliche.. you'll be 99% safe.. well at least if its not the correct cliche.. its jus a cliche.. so chances are u'll still get away with it..

i noe i'll not go far in life becoz i hate to do all these relationship bonding stuff, WHICH IS the REAL KEY to success.. NOT UR EDUCATION!! n i chose to LIVE MY LIFE n not to GO FAR IN LIFE.. call mi stubborn.. call mi ignorant.. call mi whatever.. why shd i live miserablely jus to GO FAR IN LIFE.. i really dun get it..

bored..

i had probably chosen the best time.. if there is one.. but then again.. its jus bad.. nite..

wat's new

utterly lost n confused.. mostly by myself..

1. why do i feel sorry for walk-in-$10-salesman but not for those ppl selling tissue paper at the hawker centre..


2. how did i managed to play off things by pretending it is not there (n seriously gg thru life believing its not there)..


3. - anger is a form of life.. (if u cant feel anger.. u r not living..)
   - pride is a direction.. (it guides you whenever u r lost or indecisive..)
   - stuborness is a souce of energy.. (without it u probably wldn't achieve anything great..)

weird but true.. i guess

i have to adjust my rearview mirror EVERYDAY.. why? yeah u tell mi why.. i wonder too.. i'm sure nobody touch the car.. jus that it always happen in the morning (driving to work) and in the evening (driving home)..

*** break ***
divert off.. coz some body jus pisses me..
another fucking stoopid idiot come n tell mi working for ur dad is so much easier that "outside" coz the boss throws their file when unsatisfied.. FUCK OFF.. (yet i cant utter a single word coz for corporate benefit jus hav to fake a fucking smile *yucks how unreal*)..

i may not be totally experience in the "outside" world but jus FUCK OFF.. if u like jus GO N WORK FOR UR OWN DAD.. opps sorrie.. i forget u r not as LUCKY as me..

*** break ***
back to my adjusting..

SO after a few days i concluded that my body length actually changes quite significantly.. every morn i sat in the car.. i only c the half the rear windscreen (coz its too low) i shifted in my seat.. thinking that i might be slouching the prev day or something.. nope doesnt work.. so i shift the mirror..

then in the evening.. i look at the mirror.. again i only c the half the rear windscreen (this time its the other half.. which mean its too high) tried shift my seating posture.. nahh still dun work..

beside steching n shrinking thru the day n nite.. i cannot think of any other reason.. *still puzzled*

beautifully said..

啊！生命它只是个月台，你来的目的就是离开。

(Translated: Ah! Life is but a (train) platform, your purpose of coming is to leave.)

--Jimmy's Subway Book - The Musical

scuba school

jus went to a pool session last nite.. was damn surprised when i step in.. all round the whole 50m x 8lanes pool were ppl gearing up.. as i was there jus to evesdrop some basic skill.. things got abit boring.. n i decided to take count.. ALL inclusive of instructors was 70 ppl at the pool gearing up or at the bottom of the pool or at the pool side learning the basic scuba eqpt..

thinking back.. when i had my own lesson 7 yrs ago.. its was jus probably 2 to 3 grps of 4 students or less ?.. is the whole world learning scuba diving now or was my pool session at a less popular pool.. i cldnt hav guess or believed 70!!! if i hadnt do a double count myself..

damn

LIFE IS NOT ALL ABT $$$!!!

idiots who ANS me "OF COS u can say that.. u hav so much $ already" can jus fuck off okay.. dun tok to mi..

i really wonder.. m i jus not in the position to make tis comment.. IDIOTS!

chornic..

i'm either sick.. falling sick.. or jus recovering.. nvr fit as a fiddle these days (btw wat is a fiddle..?) izzit the age ting.. dun tell mi.. blar..

owww...

sprained my right thumb...

dunno how i did it..
dunno when i sprain it..
dunno wat to do now..

*pain*