seeking the best distributation..

hard as i tried.. i can nvr get the best distribution..

i tried hard to divide my precious evenings among so many things..

2 evenings to climbing.. 1 evening to jap class.. n the remaining 2 evenings n 2 weekends to b spread to my bf n family(occassional showing face n the luxury of homecooked food..), also at the back of my mind is a constant nag that i still hav an in-line skate, a swim, a jog n a jap revision session to b packed in each wk.. not forgeting an occasional catch-up movie or dina session w different clique of frens.. obviously all these are overflowing from my remaining 2 evenings n 2 wkends..

when time is already so tight.. u jus wonder y one hav to waste time showing face at home when it only leads to either 1 of the scenarios:-
1) helping w some housework..
2) continuing office unsettled stuff (puting in all the mental notes so that the next day u waste no time taking instructions)..
3) listening to mum (sometimes u really wanna spent time toking to her, yet everyting sounded like nags)..
4) listening to different family members quarelling
5) me end up being unhappy w either 1 of the family member..

everytime i am at home.. i feel sad n tired
everytime i am at home.. i tried to stay in my room jus to prevent encountering senario 4 n 5..
everytime i am at home.. i seek solaces in tv drama n my blog..
everytime i am at home.. i wonder wat's the diff whether i hav a family or not..
everytime i am at home.. i wonder where's the diff from working hrs..
everytime i am at home.. i wonder why i am home..